A little history first, on why I’m writing this. I have very negative connotations about people being gay. This is because when I was in fifth grade, a boy came across my best friend and I seeking shelter under a bridge on the way to school. It was one of those frigid, arctic days where the wind would blow through all your layers no matter what.
He started yelling that we were kissing under the bridge, and he proceeded to run to the school and tell EVERYONE that my friend and I were gay. I heard so much hate in the next six years of my life. I can’t even dignify them with restating them. Middle school was awful. If I wasn’t a Christian at that time, I don’t think I would have made it through.
I didn’t have a boyfriend or a first kiss until I was 17 because of this. I married my first husband (in part) because I wanted to prove to the world that I wasn’t a lesbian. (Yes I loved him, and no it didn’t work out, but why else would I get engaged at age 20?)
So when I hear the world talk about people who are gay who are bullied, I know where they are coming from. I know what it’s like to be shoved in the hallway. Whispered about. To have my friends-the few that were left- tell me that they couldn’t sit with me anymore. They didn’t believe the rumors, but they didn’t want to be associated with me or they might have rumors fly about them too.
I don’t have any gay friends, because every time I hear that they are gay, all those voices rush up in my head and I can’t silence them, even though it was over 25 years ago.
I have Christian friends however, most who are outspoken against gay people. Why? Don’t gay people need Jesus too? If we keep dragging out the portion of scripture where they should be stoned, how is that turning them to God? ALL have sinned. What do we think lying is? Stealing? Drinking excessively? Adultery? Gossip? Ignoring the poor? Being gay? All are sins that separate us from God.
Yes, I think being gay is a sin. But since I don’t think I can go 5 minutes without at least thinking some snarky or judgmental comment (my inner censor is improving with age, thank God), who am I to judge?
I don’t really think that God would take a gay person who made a profession of faith, and make them burn in hell. Conversely, I would hope that God would nudge them a little, and they should want to change, even if they can’t.
I have a sugar addiction that I can’t shake. I know it’s not the same as being gay, but everyday I wake up and face it again. I don’t think that God is overjoyed when I eat 1000 M&Ms in a sitting. That’s not taking good care of the body God gave me. SIN. Yes, I am a sinner. And I make an effort, however futile it seems at times, to change my ways. And I believe that gay people should do that as well. But I’m not in their heads, and I can’t see their struggles.
I think gay people should be welcomed into the churches, and I think the focus should be on salvation, not on who they are sleeping with. I know this opinion isn’t popular with Christians, or probably gay people for that matter, and my question is WHY? Maybe I’m just a lackluster Christian who doesn’t want to stand up to the voices in my head. Maybe I should have a stronger, less middle-of-the-road opinion. I just don’t know. But I do know that I’ve given this a lot of thought in the past couple years.